why does everyone who i meet or who i talk to always asks me the same fatal question: "do you have a boyfriend?" thinkin positivly that i have it, but then i upset them telling the truth; that i don't have anyone. This is the fact! I don't have anyone. I am in a desperate situation. They beleive that i'm so pretty, thus i must have a boyfriend. Its frustrating for me! knowing that it's just an illusion because if things are meant to be, I should have a boyfriend at the moment! but i don't have one! Yeah i keep repeating that i don't have no one. Its frustrating me! it's getting harder for me to accept it. I had enough of this shit!!!
why the fuck do i keep thinking of you when we didn't even speak to each other (yet) though we're on the same class! I hate this situation!! it's not just because you winked me the first day of school and everytime i see you're looking at me you'r smiling at me it doesnt mean that you like me!!(does it??) sheeeeesh please make my head STOP!!
So here i am sitting in front of a computer in a corner of my falling to pieces apartment sipping my camomille to sleep well and listening to some good brazilian reggae music! Actually it's really good. yeah i am amazed too to know that i like reggae music but it's relaxing, though i don't smoke joint! and i REALLY DON'T! Yesterday i spent my saturday with my dear friend Ririan. after that short period of misunderstanding our feelings and not knowing what to do of our friendship, we "reunited". We just hang out in corso buenos aires and then went to her house to chill and to dine. While we were eating out baguette and other stuff haha we listened to some brazilian and english music, such an amazing moment :) yeah i think it is always for the reason of our short separation.. after all we felt comfortable of ourselves... ok enough drama. i'd simply end saying that i had a really good day! <33